Two years ago I was not in a good spot. Two years ago I was in the midst of transition and turmoil. Two years ago I came to my favourite magical town to visit some wonderful family friends and get in the Christmas spirit. Two years ago on the way home from this magical visit, I met Ben, and that’s where the magic truly began.
Deep in my gut was this feeling and the words “stay another day”. I’ve never felt something so powerful and clear. I was supposed to return home on Monday for work, but my shift was conveniently cancelled. The people I was staying with said “hey, you don’t have to leave today, feel free to take another day and leave tomorrow.” And so I listened to my gut and I enjoyed another wonderful day in my favourite town (not knowing the next day everything would change).
I got to the greyhound station with tears in my eyes. I didn’t want to leave the love of my family friends or the magic of the town. I didn’t want to return to the chaos and confusion that had become my life. I knew big decisions and changes were about to be made, but they were about to be made much easier. As I walked into the greyhound station, I noticed a handsome man sitting in the corner of the room listening to music. He caught my eye probably without even noticing. Coincidentally, he worked with the lady I was staying with and we were briefly introduced. We spent the next two hours glancing back at each other and awkwardly turning away when the other one caught sight of it.
The bus stopped. And my heart did too as Ben approached me. We chatted briefly and I said he could sit beside me if he likes. With energy and enthusiasm, he grabbed his stuff and bounce landed in the seat next to me. We spent the rest of the bus ride chatting and laughing, it was as if we’d known each other for years.
I was smitten. Everything I dreamed of having in a man was right in front of me; kind, humorous, loves the outdoors, educated, great relationship with his family. The list went on and on and on. He sold me with “my favourite thing is exploring a new place or standing at the top of a mountain”. I didn’t believe it when people would say “when you know, you know” until I met Ben. It was as if I was being shown that it was possible for me to have a man who would treat me right, a man who was genuine and real and truly himself.
I wish I could say it was all happily ever after from there. There were a few hiccups along the way. We both went through transitionary periods including travel and moving, but our interest for each other didn’t go anywhere. My friends probably thought I was nuts when I would say things like “I have a feeling we’ll be together one day. I know it’s not the end of us.” But sure enough, two years later here we are. Living happily, healthily, and heartfully in my favourite magical town.
It’s crazy to think had I not followed my intuition, I may not be aware of my self-worth. I may not have had the opportunity to grow in the same way without Ben being brutally honest with me to produce necessary positive change. I’m thankful everyday for his presence in my life. I’m thankful for the beautiful, synchronistic journey that got us to where we are today, and I’m thankful for the love and laughter we share together on a daily basis. Some messages or gut feelings may seem silly, and may not make total sense at the time, but I’m living proof that when you follow your intuition, truly beautiful and profound things can happen.
Two years ago I met the love of my life. Two years ago I allowed my shell to crack open, and I allowed my self-worth to blossom and grow. Two years ago I realized I am (and we are all) worthy of a healthy, harmonious relationship. So here’s to Ben; the man I love waking up to everyday. Thank you for coming into my life and influencing me more than I ever dreamed was possible. My heart is so full of love and gratitude for you.